Truly, an update

[froggy_dear]

The spring quarter registration form came out. And there's a 600 level thesis thing on it run by Wilson. So I'm wondering if it's redundant to have the thesis thing that Dawn is proctoring going on informally anymore. I'm also wondering what it'll be like to have Wilson in the room and if we'll all be facing forward. And, truthfully, I feel a little betrayed, like it was my baby. I have no right to any ownership, it's not even a new idea, these thesis support groups, but, damn it, I made it happen Winter Quarter and Dawn and I had talked a little bit about what it would be like in Spring Quarter, and it's not even a little bit mine anymore. I'll get over it. But still...

I proclaimed loudly and to anyone who would listen that this week would be my thesis week. I haven't done any thesis work since Monday. I'm feeling a bit like a failure. I have some hope of reclaiming some time over the weekend, but I don't know how that will actually work out. I'm also feeling rather fat despite trying on several pairs of pants this week that fit nicely about the waist and were only ill-fitting in other ways (too long, slight pleat (ugh), gauchos (I didn't realize they were gauchos until I tried them on, honest)) and actually got a skirt that I adore and think is flattering.

I also haven't applied to any jobs this week. I didn't see any jobs I wanted to apply for, though, so I guess it's not so bad. There were a couple of positions, but those were paid hourly, and at this point, being paid $12/hr is not an option. When it's June and I have no job, then we can talk (although I will (probably)have a job if I don't get a job, so I suppose that's some condolence).

My aunt bought me my graduation present today. I was talking to her online and I showed her the link of a necklace I was ogling, and she offered it as a present. I took her up on it. This is the necklace. And these are the matching earrings. So that's kind of exciting. I have this vision of wearing them to a job interview in Vermont.

And that's because I'm fantasizing about further job interviews. I was freaking out on Wednesday morning with nervousness about my interviews. The first was amazing. I did absolutely brilliantly. Then she gave me the speech that she's sure I'll have no trouble getting a job and she'll keep her eyes open for opportunities in the area and pass them along to me. She did seem genuinely disappointed that our schedules don't match up (I can't start till July and she's currently the only person running the museum, so she needs help yesterday). I would really like that job, but it's unrealistic to hope.

The other interview wasn't so much an interview as it was a talking. He most talked and I said things where I could. And he didn't intend it as an interview, but as a getting to know me, is what he said. I got mixed signals. He told me he was concerned by my lack of experience and management skills. I do have a minimum of experience, as much as I could muster and this point, and my management skills are yet to be determined. I believe that I could manage people just fine. I might have some trouble asserting myself as I got into the job, but it would emerge once I was comfortable in my role. I've just never had the chance to manage. And then he asked for my references and talked about the next steps in the process and asked about times that would be best if I got to the final round and were to be flown out to VT for an interview. Mixed signals. It sounds like a good place to work, but I worry about the things that are holding me back.


It amuses me to refer to them as my lady bits. But seriously folks. I've an appointment on Tuesday to talk to the Dr. about switching over to Nuva-ring. I'm increasingly absentminded about my pill (haven't missed one, but did manage to take two in one night once), and with the craziness of travel, thesis, and potentially moving, I want something that I don't need to think about as often. I feel bad, because I did get a full year of BC in Jan when I had my annual, so that's likely to go to waste (unless someone who reads this has a prescription to Ortho-Cyclen and would be interested in alleviating my guilt... pending trial period of the Nuva-ring and my taking to it). I think the switch will be liberating. Plus it'll make travel issues and time zones issues, non-issues.



I have this image set as the background on my laptop. This picture was taken on one of many trips to Mt. Rainier this past summer. I'm going to miss these mountains when I go.

Comments

[enzie.livejournal.com]

I don't know if you want my two cents or not, but for me, the nuva ring should have been a "mood ring". Seriously. Bleeding and crying for a month. It suuuuuucked. Though, if I hadn't had the depression and long period it would have been a great method of birth control. It's really comfortable and nearly impossible to forget about (and fairly cheap through student health insurance). Have you considered an IUD?

[froggy-dear.livejournal.com]

I think I need hormonal birth control. I'd never had any set cycle before I went on it, and I went on it after 2-3 months of continuous bleeding and some scary heavy clotting. So there's also that to consider, for me.

[enzie.livejournal.com]

Gotcha. It's a great method, it just didn't work out for me. I hope you have a better experience!

[rainswolf.livejournal.com]

What city are you in? Because here, $12 an hour is great! I hope and pray my gf can find a $12 an hour job for the interval between "finished the PhD" and "found a college teaching job."

[bluemoonshark.livejournal.com]

I would continue meeting with just you and Dawn and Laura and Andy and whoever else showed up, credit or no credit, wilson clas or no wilson class. While it'll be valuable to get the info about defending, sometimes you just need to chat.

[missingdonut.livejournal.com]

That picture is awesome. I think I'm going to save it and put it on my work computer as the desktop background.

[drcristin.livejournal.com]

FYI, I used to be on NuvaRing and I loved it!