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I have a midterm tomorrow. And I am not so much caring. I went over the quizzes and my notes once and I'll do it right before class again, but... that's about it. I mean, what does it really matter? It doesn't! I'm sure I'll do just fine. Not stellar, but fine.

I should be writing. I should be writing my thesis or some cover letters. Maybe I'll go back to some thesis work. And work on cover letters on Tuesday and send some more out then. Seems reasonable.

Oh! I got my business cards. They are so cute. Half the size of regular business cards. Totally unprofessional, but they reflect me. Some better than others. I like them.

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I guess I am feeling stressed. I'm reading the Museum-L listserv about how there are OMG NO JOBS AND RECENT GRADS WILL NOT GET ONE, and I am freaking out. I had been trying to write my thesis, but I decided to work on a cover letter instead, because that job is my ONLY HOPE or something. Which is ready to send out now once my references tell me okey dokey.

And I am terrified of not getting any job. Terrified. Even more than of not finishing my thesis. Because I could finish my thesis anywhere once I have a job. If I didn't finish my thesis by June, then I would need to pay $700 to register for the quarter I would defend in. But if I had a real job to go to, then I would not need to worry about the $700 and also not need to worry about a job. This is a new trend in my thinking and I do not like it. But it also makes a lot of sense. But if I have no job and no thesis. Then that is really sucky. Yes very sucky.

I really need to calm down and hope for the best. And urge it along as best I can. By actually writing and stuff. And by sending out applications.

If I'm feeling all basketcasey now, what am I going to be like in April?

Edit: Nothing calms a girl down like some sit-ups and stuff on cats. And now, goodnight.